Yes, I know it’s been forever. I just haven’t felt like blogging lately. I know, I suck. I think I need to come up with topics to talk about. I also need to not be so lazy. On my next days off I think I should do.. stuff and things to this place to try and make it more interesting? What I really want to do is make stuff and sell them on Etsy. I also intend on buying a Wacom tablet, even though I can’t draw. I like making photomanipulations, and editing photos and I believe a tablet would make my life easier. Maybe I can’ even try to learn to draw. Maybe I could make photoshop brushes and what not if I get the hang of it. >_<

In other news, I adopted a new family member a couple weeks ago. She is a little one year old fluffy white and orange kitty. I got her from the Humane Society and the found her as a stray and named her Cinnamon. I do not like that name, cinnamon is brown and my cousin named her first rabbit that. I renamed her Aurora, Roman Goddess of sunrise or something along those lines.

I'm also so excited... ish. I'm nearly done writing Infected Night, just have to finish coming up with the best ending. Then I have to go back and fix all the plot holes I'm sure there are a million of. Then change large parts of the story that I thought of after I wrote them. Then I shall force people to read it and pick out errors I missed. And then I will write more stories that will hopefully not take five years to write.

The thing with wanting to become a writer is that it is not a very good paying career choice. Living on your own is also not a good idea if you want to get a better paying job to support ones dream when education is needed. I can't bring myself to go to an actual school, I also have to work full time in order to pay bills. I have found many online courses I could take, I'm just really hesitant about them. The ones I found said they were accredited and what not. Maybe there is not anything to really worry about. I just have this fear that if I take those courses and finish them no one will hire me because they won't count those courses as real education. There are people that took online courses and have a better job than retail. There shouldn't be anything to worry about, should there?

Also, WordPress themes stress me out. Maybe that is why I haven't changed it yet?

Listening To Cars driving by.
Reading About to start reading The Fault In Our Stars – John Green
Writing Project Infected Night

Sorry I haven’t posted anything in months, I’ve felt too lazy to do anything. Then I felt too depressed to do anything.

My saddest day happened on October 10. I had to put my cat, Silver, down. I wish I didn’t have to but I did, it was for the best I have to keep telling myself. The week before he wasn’t eating his food anymore and he was starting to seem weak. I thought it was because he didn’t like his food anymore so I tried a different brand, but he still wouldn’t touch it so I took him to the vet. They found a tumour by his intestines so the next day they did an ultrasound to see if it could be operated, instead they found a bunch of other problems such as fluid in his abdomen, enlarged kidneys and he was jaundice. He was also purring a lot to comfort himself, so he was in a lot of pain so I had to do what was best for him. Good thing was, during those days I was able to take those days off work and I told my manager and coworkers the true about what was happening and she let me not come in. They of course told upper management that I was sick, so that was good.

The hardest part of all this is not having a cat anymore. This is the longest I have lived that I remember without a cat. I don’t remember much of life without one. When my cousin’s had to put down their kitten it wasn’t so bad because we had Silver. Now it seems horrible, but I’m doing a lot better now. I just hate not having a pet, and I won’t get a new one until I’m ready. Until I stop breaking down when I think of Silver too long.

Now, enough of the depressing talk. Winter, I hate it. The roads are He’ll to drive on.

I must begone now. This was typed on my new iPod and I have to go before I’m late for work. >_<

Listening To Cars driving by.
Reading Nothing…
Writing Project Infected Night