I’ve Abandoned This…

I‘ve abandoned this place. I’ve been wanting to update it, and do something with this site. But I just never had the motivation to do anything at all. I have just been spending my time on tumblr, and being obsessed with Youtube and nothing else. I want to make more blog posts and such, I want to make my site better, but I have no idea where to start. >_< Well, I know where to start and that is the layout, but I'm lazy and forgot how to do most of the coding and whatnot. I was going to do this the last time I wrote something here, but that was over a year ago, and I got distracted. I suck. I also just realized I started making sites ten years ago. Ten freaking years ago. What? Time sure did fly by, wow. Nothing like feeling old. I noticed that this loads so slow lately. I might need to look into finding a new host, the amount of downtime I've encountered is ridiculous. I'm going to have to look into that... I might look into blogger or tumblr. I might not move there simply because I like the freedom of having my own site and doing whatever I want. Anyway, I just felt like posting something here after a whole year of doing diddly squat on here. >_< I have to get ready to go to Hell... I mean work.

Listening To Bad Moon Rising – Creedence Clearwater Revival
Reading Carpe Corpus by Rachel Caine
Writing Project Infected Night

Dreams.

Yes, I know it’s been forever. I just haven’t felt like blogging lately. I know, I suck. I think I need to come up with topics to talk about. I also need to not be so lazy. On my next days off I think I should do.. stuff and things to this place to try and make it more interesting? What I really want to do is make stuff and sell them on Etsy. I also intend on buying a Wacom tablet, even though I can’t draw. I like making photomanipulations, and editing photos and I believe a tablet would make my life easier. Maybe I can’ even try to learn to draw. Maybe I could make photoshop brushes and what not if I get the hang of it. >_< In other news, I adopted a new family member a couple weeks ago. She is a little one year old fluffy white and orange kitty. I got her from the Humane Society and the found her as a stray and named her Cinnamon. I do not like that name, cinnamon is brown and my cousin named her first rabbit that. I renamed her Aurora, Roman Goddess of sunrise or something along those lines. I'm also so excited... ish. I'm nearly done writing Infected Night, just have to finish coming up with the best ending. Then I have to go back and fix all the plot holes I'm sure there are a million of. Then change large parts of the story that I thought of after I wrote them. Then I shall force people to read it and pick out errors I missed. :P And then I will write more stories that will hopefully not take five years to write.

The thing with wanting to become a writer is that it is not a very good paying career choice. Living on your own is also not a good idea if you want to get a better paying job to support ones dream when education is needed. I can't bring myself to go to an actual school, I also have to work full time in order to pay bills. I have found many online courses I could take, I'm just really hesitant about them. The ones I found said they were accredited and what not. Maybe there is not anything to really worry about. I just have this fear that if I take those courses and finish them no one will hire me because they won't count those courses as real education. There are people that took online courses and have a better job than retail. There shouldn't be anything to worry about, should there?

Also, WordPress themes stress me out. Maybe that is why I haven't changed it yet?

Listening To Cars driving by.
Reading About to start reading The Fault In Our Stars – John Green
Writing Project Infected Night