So sad…

Sorry I haven’t posted anything in months, I’ve felt too lazy to do anything. Then I felt too depressed to do anything.

My saddest day happened on October 10. I had to put my cat, Silver, down. I wish I didn’t have to but I did, it was for the best I have to keep telling myself. The week before he wasn’t eating his food anymore and he was starting to seem weak. I thought it was because he didn’t like his food anymore so I tried a different brand, but he still wouldn’t touch it so I took him to the vet. They found a tumour by his intestines so the next day they did an ultrasound to see if it could be operated, instead they found a bunch of other problems such as fluid in his abdomen, enlarged kidneys and he was jaundice. He was also purring a lot to comfort himself, so he was in a lot of pain so I had to do what was best for him. Good thing was, during those days I was able to take those days off work and I told my manager and coworkers the true about what was happening and she let me not come in. They of course told upper management that I was sick, so that was good.

The hardest part of all this is not having a cat anymore. This is the longest I have lived that I remember without a cat. I don’t remember much of life without one. When my cousin’s had to put down their kitten it wasn’t so bad because we had Silver. Now it seems horrible, but I’m doing a lot better now. I just hate not having a pet, and I won’t get a new one until I’m ready. Until I stop breaking down when I think of Silver too long.

Now, enough of the depressing talk. Winter, I hate it. The roads are He’ll to drive on.

I must begone now. This was typed on my new iPod and I have to go before I’m late for work. >_<

Listening To Cars driving by.
Reading Nothing…
Writing Project Infected Night

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